The man at the door had one job, check the list, let people in, keep people out. He had been doing it for 4 hours and he was good at it in the efficient impersonal way that people who do one job for a long time become good at it. He did not know everyone on the list. Nobody expected him to. The list was long and the evening was important and his job was the list, not the people on it.
He checked the list when the old man arrived. He checked it twice, the way he had been instructed to check it when something didn’t immediately resolve. Then he looked up at the old man and said the thing he said when something didn’t immediately resolve, which was “I don’t see your name here, sir. Do you have a ticket?” The old man said he didn’t have a ticket.
He said he had been told he was on the list. The doorman checked again. He was thorough. That was part of doing the job well. He ran his finger down the names a third time, past the performers and the industry figures and the journalists and the various people whose names he did not recognize but whose presence on the list meant they had been authorized by someone who knew something he didn’t.
The name was not there. He looked at the old man and said he was sorry but he couldn’t let him in without a name on the list or a ticket. The old man said, “My name is Chuck Berry.” The doorman nodded politely. He had heard this kind of thing before. People sometimes said names at the door, famous names, as if the saying of the name would open a door that the list couldn’t.
He said, “Sir, I understand but without your name on the list or a ticket, I’m not able to.” The old man said, “I know. It’s fine.” He stepped back from the door. He looked at the building for a moment, the marquee, the lights, the line of people still filing in on either side of the doorman’s position. The marquee read, in the specific fonts that had been commissioned for the occasion, An Evening in Honor of Chuck Berry, the father of rock and roll.
He read it for a moment, then he nodded once to himself in the private way that people nod when they have encountered something that requires a small internal rearrangement before it can be properly filed. Then he walked to the end of the building and stood against the wall in the November cold and waited.
It was November 14th, 1986. The venue was the Fox Theatre in St. Louis, Missouri. Chuck Berry was 60 years old. Eight months earlier, at the first-ever Rock and Roll Hall of Fame induction ceremony in New York City, he had stood at a podium while Bruce Springsteen talked about what No Particular Place to Go had meant to a kid from New Jersey with a transistor radio.
And the room had given him the kind of sustained standing acknowledgement that marks the transition from being an important musician to being a historical fact. The industry had arrived at an official position on Chuck Berry, and the official position was that he was the foundation of everything that had followed him.
The tribute concert at the Fox Theatre was part of that same wave of official acknowledgement. It had been organized over the preceding 6 months by a committee of music industry figures and St. Louis civic leaders who believed that a tribute of this kind was overdue and wanted to do it properly. Properly meant a full evening with performances by musicians who had been influenced by Chuck’s work.
Properly meant a historic venue. Properly meant a formal guest list and professional door management, and the kind of organized execution that distinguished a genuine tribute from a casual gathering. Properly, it turned out, did not automatically mean that the person being honored would be on the guest list.
The oversight was specific and explicable, and entirely human in its origins. The organizing committee had a coordinator named Deborah Watkins, who had been managing the event logistics for 5 months. Deborah was efficient, dedicated, and had successfully managed every component of a complicated operation. She had coordinated with 12 performing acts, three dozen industry guests, the Fox Theater’s production staff, the catering company, the lighting designer, and the sound engineer.
She had produced a guest list of 147 names, and had reviewed it four times over the preceding week. The guest list did not include Chuck Berry because the organizing committee had assumed that Chuck Berry would be arriving with his own people, through his own channels, with his own arrangements, and that those arrangements would interface with the event’s logistics at some point in the process, in a way that would make his attendance a matter of coordination rather than listing.
This assumption was reasonable. It was also wrong. Chuck Berry did not travel with a retinue of people who coordinated his movements through formal channels. He drove himself, as he had always driven himself, to the places he needed to be. He had been told the date and the venue. He had driven to the venue on the date.
He had arrived at the door. The person who discovered what had happened was a woman named Sandra Pollard. Sandra was one of the evening’s three stage managers, responsible for coordinating the flow of performers from the backstage holding area to the stage and back. She had been working in that role for 40 minutes when one of the venue’s security staff came to her with an expression that suggested he had information he wasn’t sure what to do with.
He said, “There’s a man outside the building who says he’s Chuck Berry.” Sandra said, “Where outside?” He said, “Standing at the side of the building. He’s been there for about 20 minutes.” She had worked in music production for 9 years and had met a number of well-known musicians. She recognized Chuck Berry from photographs she had seen and from the specific combination of bearing and physical presence that people who carry significant public histories tend to have.
The particular quality of someone for whom being looked at has been a condition of professional life for long enough that it has become something they have made their peace with rather than something that requires performance. He was leaning against the side of the Fox Theatre in a jacket that was not particularly warm for November.
Hands in his pockets, looking at the street with the patient unhurried expression of a man who has waited in many situations and has discovered that waiting is something you can either fight or simply do and that doing it is usually the more comfortable choice. Sandra said, “Mr. Berry, I’m so sorry. Please come with me.
” He said, “Is it sorted out?” He said, “Good. I was starting to get a cold.” She brought him inside through the stage door, which was the door that she had access to and which bypassed the front entrance where the doorman was still working his list. She walked him through the backstage corridors to the holding area where several of the evening’s performers were gathered and she handed him off to Deborah Watkins who had been located in the interim and who was in the specific state of a person who has been told something has gone wrong and is still
absorbing the precise dimensions of the wrongness. Deborah said, “Mr. Berry, I cannot tell you how sorry I am. This should never have happened.” Chuck Berry looked at her. He said, “These things happen. Don’t spend the rest of the evening worrying about it.” Deborah said, “I should have.
” He said, “You put together a nice evening. I’ve seen the program. Don’t let this be the thing you remember about it.” He said it in the tone of someone who means it. Not the generous dismissal that covers real irritation. The genuine version, which is calmer and more specific and less performed. He had been standing outside in the November cold for 20 minutes because his name wasn’t on the guest list at his own tribute concert.
And the way he was receiving the apology for this was the way a person receives a genuine apology when they have already made their peace with what happened. The holding area backstage was a large room that had been set up with chairs and food and drink and the various provisions that venues assembled for performers who had time to wait before their segment.
The room contained that evening a mixture of musicians in various states of preparation for the stage. Several of them were people whose careers had been built in part on the foundation that Chuck Berry had laid in the 1950s. One of them was a guitarist named Web who had driven from Nashville for the occasion.
He was 44 years old and had been playing professionally since he was 19. And the first guitar riff he had ever learned to play had been the opening of Johnny B. Goode. Practiced slowly in his parents’ basement until the notes were in his fingers without needing to be in his head first. Marcus was sitting with his guitar in his lap when Sandra walked Chuck Berry through the room.
He recognized him immediately. He had seen Chuck perform twice in his 20s, once in Memphis, and once in Chicago. And the face was one he had been looking at on album covers for as long as he had been paying attention to music. He stood up. He did not say anything immediately, because nothing immediately suggested itself that wasn’t inadequate to the situation.
He just stood up and waited for the moment to tell him what to do. Chuck looked at him. A small expression crossed his face. The one that people who knew him recognized as the expression he produced when he found something both slightly amusing and worth addressing. He said, “Sit down. You’re going to need to save your legs for the stage.
” Marcus sat down. He said, “I’m Marcus Webb. I’m performing third tonight.” Chuck said, “I know. I read the program in the car.” Marcus said he was honored to be part of the evening. He said he’d been playing Chuck’s music since he was 19, and that there were things in those songs that he was still finding after 25 years, and that he didn’t expect to run out of things to find.
Chuck said, “What are you finding?” Marcus said he was currently working on the relationship between the rhythm and the melody in the early records, the way the guitar line and the beat were in conversation with each other, rather than one supporting the other. The way neither one was background. Chuck listened to this.
Then he said, “That’s right. You found it.” Marcus said he wasn’t sure he had found it so much as identified it. There was a difference. Finding it and identifying it weren’t the same thing. Chuck said, “Keep playing. The finding comes from the playing.” They talked for about 20 minutes. The conversation was specific in the way that conversations between musicians are specific when both people are actually talking about the music rather than about the music’s cultural significance or historical importance or any of the other things that get layered over music
when it gets old enough to be treated as heritage rather than sound. They talked about specific songs and specific choices and the reasons for those choices. They talked about Maybellene and where the guitar line came from which was from a place Chuck described as the intersection of the blues he grew up hearing and the country music that came through the radio at night.
And Marcus said that he had always heard both of those things in it but hadn’t known whether that was what was intended or what he was bringing to it. Chuck said, “Both.” That’s the right answer. The best music is the part you put in it and the part the listener puts in it. The song is the place where those two things meet.
At some point during the conversation, a few other people had gathered nearby. Not intrusively, not interrupting, but positioned in the specific way that people position themselves when something is happening that they don’t want to miss. A singer who was performing later in the evening, one of the evening’s organizers, a production assistant who had come backstage for an entirely different reason and had stayed.
They listened without participating. Deborah Watkins came in at half past seven to tell Chuck that the evening was about to begin and to ask whether he had any preferences about how his presence would be handled during the show. She said the program as designed did not have a formal moment for him to address the audience, but that they would of course arrange whatever he preferred.
Chuck said he didn’t need to address the audience. He said he would watch from the side of the stage if that was possible. >> >> And that he’d be happy to come out at the end if the performers wanted to finish together. Deborah said that could absolutely be arranged. Chuck said, “Good. I want to hear the music.” What happened over the following 2 hours at the Fox Theatre in St.
Louis was documented by exactly one journalist who had been given backstage access and who spent a significant portion of the evening watching Chuck Berry watch the tribute to Chuck Berry from the side of the stage. The journalist’s name was Robert Callahan and he worked for a St. Louis music publication that had a circulation of approximately 12,000 readers.
He took notes throughout the evening in a small notebook, the old-fashioned way. And his notes were specific and observational in the way that good music journalism sometimes is. He wrote that Chuck Berry watched every performance with a focused attention of someone who was genuinely listening. Not performing the act of listening for an audience.
He wrote that during Marcus Webb’s set, Chuck stood at the edge of the stage with his arms crossed and his head slightly tilted and watched Marcus play the opening riff to Johnny B. Goode with the expression of someone hearing a familiar sentence spoken in an unfamiliar accent. Not disturbed by the difference.
Interested in it. He wrote that at one point between sets, a young production assistant who had been backstage all evening and who had apparently only gradually pieced together who the man watching from the side of the stage actually was, came over and said something to Chuck that Callahan couldn’t hear from his position.
Chuck answered. The production assistant’s response was visible from across the room. She stood very still for a moment, then nodded, then walked away and did not come back. He wrote that when the final performance ended and the performers gathered on stage for the closing moment, Chuck walked out with them and the audience, which had been on its feet for the last three songs, produced a sound that the Fox Theatre had probably not generated in some time.
Not because it was the loudest sound the room had heard that evening, but because it was the most specific. The evening had been building toward this particular acknowledgement, and here it was. Callahan wrote that Chuck Berry stood at the center of the stage and looked at the Fox Theatre audience for a moment before he said anything.
He wrote that in that moment, watching from the wings, it occurred to him that the man at the center of the stage had arrived at this same building two hours earlier and been told he wasn’t on the list. He wrote that he didn’t know whether the audience knew that or whether it would change what they were feeling if they did.
He wrote that he thought it probably would have and that the thing it would change in them was the feeling of being certain they understood who they were looking at. Chuck Berry said a few things to the room. He thanked the performers. He thanked the organizers. He said something about St. Louis that made the room laugh.
He was economical the way he always was in public. He gave the room what it needed without giving it more than that. Then he said one thing that Callahan noted specifically and that appeared in his piece as the final line. Chuck said that the music outlived every one of the decisions he made when he was making it and that most of the decisions he made when he was making it were made quickly in rooms very different from the Fox Theatre with no idea that anybody would be in this room on this night talking about them.
He said that was how it worked. You made the music and it went wherever it went. And then one day somebody built a whole evening around it and you drove there and stood at the door and waited for somebody to sort out whether you were allowed in. He paused. He said, “I was allowed in.” The room laughed. Then it applauded.
Then it went quiet in the specific way that rooms go quiet when everyone in them is holding the same feeling and doesn’t want to break it yet. The doorman finished his shift at midnight. He locked the front entrance and collected his things from the small booth beside the door. He had worked the list for 4 hours and had admitted or turned away approximately 300 people.
That was also in its way the most honest summary of the evening that anyone produced.
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