Posted in

ELLA PENSABA QUE TENDRÍA AL BEBÉ SOLA EN LA CHOZA… HASTA QUE APARECIÓ UN GRANJERO VIUDO A CABALLO

She thought she would have the baby alone in the hut until a widowed farmer appeared on horseback.  The scream never came out.  Salome gritted her teeth, gripped the wooden door frame, and waited for the pain to pass.  Passed.  It always happened, but each time it took longer to leave, and each time it returned it came back stronger, as if the life it carried inside was impatient, ready to claim its place in the world, regardless of the conditions.

"
"

Outside, the sun beat down on the earth with a brutality known only to those who have lived in those valleys where the wind arrives dry and hot with no promise of rain.  The road that passed in front of the hut was dusty dirt, without asphalt, without signs, without an official name on any recent map.

The locals called it the wind pass, even though there had n’t been a breeze for months.  Salomé was 26 years old, although if someone had seen her at that moment, standing on the side of that road, with her belly swollen, her hair gathered in a loose braid and her bare feet on the damp earth floor of the hut, they would have said that life had already taken more from her than corresponds to that age.

There was nobody else.  There was no neighbor nearby.  There was no phone signal.  There was no car waiting.  Just the hut, the road, the heat, and that pain that came back more and more often.  She had arrived at that place four months ago, not exactly by choice , but rather because it was the last point she could retreat to before the world simply ended for her.

She had been expelled from Tierra Colorada, the nearest town , 30 km to the north.  Not with violence, at least not physical violence.  It was with words, with silences, with doors that don’t open, with jobs that suddenly become unavailable, with glances that say everything the mouth doesn’t dare to say out loud.  The reason was simple, although for the people it was not.

Salome was pregnant and refused to say who the father was in the red earth.  That wasn’t just a scandal, it was an affront, a breach of the unwritten order that governs those places where everyone knows each other and where secrets are considered a form of collective betrayal.  What kind of woman doesn’t know who the father of her child is?  Doña Esperanza Rubalcaba, the woman who rented him the room where he lived, had told him that the day she handed over his things in a black plastic bag.

Salome did not answer not because she did not know what to say, but because what she knew was not something that could be said at that moment, in that place, in front of that woman.  And then he left.   He walked until he found the hut.  It was an old adobe building, with a rusty sheet metal roof that creaked every time the wind passed by.

Someone had abandoned her years ago.  It didn’t have a solid door.  just an old wooden sheet hanging from two hinges.  There was a well 20 m deep with water that tasted like mineral water, but it was usable.  It had a small window overlooking the road and was mostly silent.  For Salome, silence was enough.

He cleaned what he could.  She got hold of a rusty spring bed that someone had left lying in the ditch of the road 3 km further south and dragged it to the shack with an energy that today, 4 months later and about to give birth, she no longer had.  She packed what little she had into a cardboard box reinforced with tape: documents, an old notebook, some coins, and a map—a land map she had drawn herself from records she had copied by hand at the Tierra Colorada Civil Registry office before she was also expelled from there.  That map was what she

cared for most, more than herself.  At times the pain returned, this time longer, deeper.  It started in the lower back, went down the hips and settled in the belly as if someone were squeezing from the inside.  Salome exhaled slowly, leaned against the wall, and told her story.  1 2 3 cu 5. The pain was mild.

She knew enough to understand that labor had begun.  It wasn’t his first time facing something alone.  I was born into a family where learning to solve problems was a matter of survival.  His mother had given birth to six children, three of them in conditions not very different from these.  He had told her once when Salome was a child and asked her if she had been afraid.

Fear doesn’t nourish, my daughter, only action does.  I had said that phrase more times than I could count.  But today, as the contraction subsided and she was left trembling, leaning against the wall, with sweat soaking her back and sunlight entering obliquely through the small window, Salomé felt something she rarely allowed herself to feel.

Fear, not for her, but for the child.  Or the girl, she didn’t know what it was.  I hadn’t been able to have an ultrasound in the last three months.  I hadn’t had the chance.  I knew the baby was alive because I could feel it moving. She knew he was strong because his kicks sometimes woke her up in the middle of the night. But now, at that moment, without anyone, without an instrument, without expert hands, the reality of what was about to happen hit her with brutal clarity.

She was going to give birth alone, in an adobe hut, on a nameless road.  And if something went wrong, there would be no one to help her.  She went outside because the heat inside was unbearable.  She stood in the doorway, one hand on the frame, the other holding her belly.  The road was empty in both directions. To the right, the land disappeared among dry bushes and the occasional twisted mesquite tree .

To the left, the road turned behind a hill and disappeared. No vehicle had passed by for three weeks .  He closed his eyes and it was at that moment, with his eyes closed and the sun falling on his face, that he heard something, a sound that was not the wind, it was not an engine, it was softer, more rhythmic, more ancient.  Helmets.

He opened his eyes from around the bend in the hill, emerging from the dust as if the road had been protecting him all that time.  A horse appeared, and on it a man.  He wasn’t young, he saw that immediately.  Nor was he old in the decrepit sense.  He was the kind of man who seems to have reached a nameless age, where the body shows the effects of work and time, but is still capable, still firm.

He rode unhurriedly, with the posture of someone who has spent more time on horseback than in a desk chair.  It stopped.  Not all at once .  The horse slowed its pace, as if it too had seen something that deserved attention.  And when he was about 10 meters from the hut, the man gently pulled the reins and the animal stopped.  The two looked at each other.

Salome did not move.  She didn’t have the strength to run, even if she had wanted to, and something in the way that man looked at her—not lustfully, not morbidly, but with something that resembled more the calm assessment of someone who has seen enough of the world to know when a person is in real trouble—told her that it wasn’t necessary.

The man slowly dismounted and tied the horse’s reins to a dry branch sticking out of the hut wall.  He took off his hat and said, “With a voice that sounded earthy and with a few carefully chosen words, she is alone.”  Salome took a second.  “Yes, how many contractions are you having?”  That surprised her.  Not the usual question, not what he’s doing here, nor where he comes from, straight to the point, as if the rest didn’t matter yet.

They started this morning, but they accelerated in the last hour.  The man nodded, put his hat back on, and said, “My name is Ulysses. I have a ranch 4 km away. There’s a clean room, hot water, and everything you need. If you’d like, I’ll take you there.”  It was not an order, it was not a plea, it was an offer presented with the same calmness with which one offers a glass of water.

Read More