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The song that made Neil Diamond cry, he said: ‘The most touching I’ve ever heard…

But he wasn’t writing music today. He couldn’t. His hands were shaking too much from the Parkinson’s disease that had been diagnosed just two months earlier in January. The diagnosis had devastated Neil. At 77 years old, he had planned to continue touring for at least another 5 years, maybe longer. He loved performing live.

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Loved the connection with his audience. Loved the energy of being on stage. But Parkinson’s had stolen that from him. The tremors, the balance issues, the difficulty with movement, all of it made touring impossible. In January, Neil had made the heartbreaking announcement that he was retiring from touring immediately. The two months since that announcement had been the darkest of Neil’s life.

He had battled through difficult times before, three divorces, career setbacks, personal struggles, but nothing had prepared him for the grief of losing his ability to perform. Music had been his identity since he was 16 years old. Who was Neil Diamond if he couldn’t stand on a stage and sing? The retirement announcement had generated an outpouring of love from fans around the world.

Thousands of messages, letters, emails, all expressing gratitude for his music and sadness that they would never see him perform live again. Neil appreciated the support, but it also made the loss feel more real. He was mourning the end of something that had defined his entire adult life.

Neil’s wife, Katie, had been incredibly supportive, but she was worried about him. She saw how depressed he was becoming, how he spent hours in his studio not making music, but just sitting there staring at his guitars and piano. She saw how he avoided watching videos of his old performances because they made him too sad.

She saw how he was withdrawing from the world, pulling away from friends and family, sinking into a dark place that frightened her. Katie knew that Neil needed something to pull him out of this depression, something to remind him that his life still had meaning, even if he couldn’t tour anymore. On this particular day in March, Katie came into the studio where Neil was sitting in the dark, lights off, just sitting in silence.

She sat down next to him and took his shaking hand in hers. Neil, I know you’re struggling. I know this is the hardest thing you’ve ever been through, but I need you to do something for me. I need you to remember why you started making music in the first place. It wasn’t about the tours or the stadiums or the applause. It was about connecting with people through songs, about expressing emotions that words alone couldn’t express.

You can still do that, Neil. You can still write. You can still record. You can still create. The Parkinson’s took away touring, but it didn’t take away your gift. Neil looked at Katie with tears in his eyes. I don’t feel like I have anything left to say. All my songs were about life and love and hope, but I don’t feel any of those things right now.

I just feel lost. Katie squeezed his hand. Then maybe you need to listen to music instead of making it. Sometimes we need to remember what music can do, how it can move us before we can create it again ourselves. I want to show you something. Katie pulled out her phone and found a video on YouTube.

It was a performance of God Bless the USA by Lee Greenwood recorded at a Veterans Day event in 2017, just a few months before Neil’s diagnosis. Neil had heard God Bless the USA countless times over the years. It was an American classic, a patriotic anthem that had been played at sporting events, political rallies, and military ceremonies since Lee Greenwood first released it in 1984.

Neil had always respected the song, appreciated its message of gratitude for the freedoms and opportunities that America represented, but he had never been particularly emotional about it. It was a good song, well written and performed, but it had never moved him to tears until now. Katie pressed play on the video, and the opening notes of God Bless the USA filled the dark studio.

Lee Greenwood’s voice, strong and sincere, began singing about being proud to be an American, about the freedom and opportunity the country represented, about gratitude for the men and women who had fought and died to protect those freedoms. The performance was at a military base, and the camera showed veterans in the audience, some in wheelchairs, some missing limbs, some with visible scars from combat.

They were singing along with every word, tears streaming down their faces, hands over their hearts. As Neil watched, something inside him broke open. He saw those veterans, people who had sacrificed their bodies and their mental health for their country, people who had lost limbs and friends and pieces of themselves.

And yet, they were singing this song with such pride and gratitude. They weren’t mourning what they had lost. They were celebrating what they still had, the freedom they had fought for, the country they loved, the lives they were still living despite their disabilities and trauma. Neil started crying, quietly at first, then harder.

Katie put her arm around him as he watched the rest of the performance, tears streaming down his face. When the song ended, Neil sat in silence for a long moment, still crying. Finally, he spoke. his voice rough with emotion. That’s the most touching thing I’ve ever heard. Not just the song, but seeing those people singing it.

Those veterans who gave everything for this country, who lost so much more than I’ve lost, and they’re not sitting in dark rooms feeling sorry for themselves. They’re celebrating life. They’re grateful. They’re still fighting. Neil paused, wiping his eyes. Katie, I’ve been so selfish. I’ve been mourning the loss of touring like it’s the end of the world.

But those people in that video, they lost limbs, they lost friends, they lost years of their lives to war, and they’re still finding joy, still finding purpose. What right do I have to give up just because I can’t tour anymore. Katie hugged Neil tightly. You’re not selfish, Neil.

You’re grieving, and that’s normal. But you’re right that there’s more to your life than touring. You have so much more to give, so many more songs to write, so many more people to inspire. The Parkinson’s took away one part of your career, but it didn’t take away your voice or your mind or your heart. You can still make music, Neil. You just have to find a new way to do it.

What would you do if you received a diagnosis that ended the career you had dedicated your entire life to? Would you give up or would you find a new purpose? Share your thoughts in the comments. Neil replayed the God Bless the USA video three more times that afternoon, each time feeling more moved, more inspired, more determined to fight his way out of the depression that had consumed him.

He started thinking about the message of the song, about gratitude for freedom and opportunity, about appreciating what you have instead of mourning what you’ve lost. That message resonated deeply with Neil in his current situation. He had lost the ability to tour, yes, but he still had so much. He had his voice. He could still sing, even if it was just in a recording studio instead of on stage.

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