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I Can’t Carry Them Alone,” She Sobbed — The Cowboy Took Their Hands… And Walked With Them

“I can’t carry them alone,” she said, and the words came out like a confession. “I’ve tried. I’ve been trying for 2 weeks, but I can’t do it. I can’t carry them anymore.” Garrett looked at the children, at the broken wagon, at the woman who was holding herself together with nothing but stubbornness and fear. He thought about his own ranch, 30 mi of open country between here and there, and the fact that Jed would have his hide for being late.

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He thought about the storm he’d seen building on the northern horizon that morning, the kind that turned gullies into rivers and left people stranded for days. He thought about walking away. Then he  looked at the boy who was watching him with eyes that had already seen too much, and he knew he wasn’t going to. “All right,” Garrett said quietly.

“Get your things. We’re leaving,” Clare blinked. “What? Whatever you can carry. Food, blankets, anything that’ll keep you warm tonight. We’re not staying here. I can’t just leave the wagon. The wagon’s done, Mom. But you’re not, so let’s move before the sun goes down and we’re all dead.” For a moment, she just stared at him.

Then something shifted in her face, something like hope, or maybe just the absence of despair.  She nodded once, sharp and quick, and turned to the children. Emma, Daniel, get your things now. They moved fast, pulling small bundles from the wagon, closed a tin cup, a doll with one arm missing. Clare grabbed a satchel and a canteen, her movements mechanical, like she was forcing herself to keep going through sheer will.

Garrett watched, calculating. two kids, one woman, all of them exhausted. It would take them 3 days to reach the ranch on foot, maybe four. And that was if the weather held. When they were ready, Clare turned back to the wagon one last time. Her hand lingered on the splintered wood, and for a second, Garrett thought she might cry, but she didn’t.

She just pressed her palm flat against it, like she was saying goodbye to something more than canvas and nails. Then she walked away. Garrett tied the children’s bundles to his saddle, keeping his rifle within reach. He offered Clare his canteen. She took it without a word, drank, then passed it to Emma, who drank and passed it to Daniel.

The boy handed it back to Garrett, his small hands trembling. “Thank you, mister,” he whispered. Garrett nodded. “Don’t thank me yet, kid. We’ve got a long walk ahead.” They started south into the fading light. The canyon walls rose around them, red and jagged, and the wind carried the smell of dust and distant rain. Garrett led the horse.

Clare walked beside him, and the children followed, their footsteps soft and unsteady on the hard ground. No one spoke. Behind them, the broken wagon sat in the canyon mouth, a ghost of what used to be, and ahead. The desert stretched out like an open wound, endless, unforgiving, and waiting. They walked until full dark, until the stars came out cold and sharp overhead.

Garrett found a hollow between two boulders, sheltered from the wind, and built a small fire with brush and deadwood. The flames crackled and hissed, throwing shadows against the stone. Clare sat with her back to the rock, the children pressed close on either side of her. Emma’s head rested on her mother’s shoulder.

Daniel stared into the fire, his face black. Garrett handed Clare a strip of jerky from his saddle bag. She took it, broke it in half, gave the pieces to the kids. They chewed slowly like they were trying to make it last. You didn’t eat, Garrett said. They needed more. You need it, too. She didn’t answer. Added just wrapped her arms around the children and closed her eyes.

Garrett sat across from them back to the opposite rock, rifle resting on his knees. The fire was small, just enough to keep the cold off. In the distance, a coyote yipped and Emma flinched. “It’s all right,” Clare murmured. It’s far away. But her voice was tight, and her hand moved to the knife on her belt. A small rusted blade that wouldn’t do much against anything bigger than a rabbit.

Garrett watched her. She was running on fumes. He’d seen it before in soldiers after long campaigns, in settlers who’d lost everything. “That hollow looked like the inside had burned out and only the shell was left. If she pushed much farther, she’d break.” “How long since you slept?” he asked. She opened her eyes, looked at him. I don’t know, days.

You need rest. I’ll rest when we’re safe. You won’t make it that far if you don’t sleep now. Her jaw clenched. I don’t need your advice, Mr. Moss. Maybe not, but your kids need you alive. That l She looked down at Emma and Daniel, both of them half asleep already, and something in her face cracked.

She pulled them closer, buried her face in Emma’s hair. I’m trying, she whispered. I’m trying so hard. Garrett said nothing. What could he say? that it would be all right, that the world was fair. He didn’t believe in lies. “Get some sleep,” he said instead. “I’ll keep watch. Why are you helping us?” The question caught him off guard.

He looked at her across the fire at the exhaustion and distrust in her eyes, and for a moment he didn’t have an answer. “Because someone has to,” he said finally. She studied him like she was trying to decide if he was lying. Then she nodded once, slow and deliberate, and closed her eyes again. Within minutes, she was asleep.

The children followed soon after, curled against her like small animals, seeking warmth. Garrett stayed awake, feeding the fire, listening to the night. The coyotes called again closer this time. An owl hooted from somewhere high in the rocks. The wind shifted, carrying the scent of rain.

He thought about the ranch, about Ged’s gruff voice, and the bunk house, and the work waiting for him. Oh, he thought about the strays he’d been tracking now long gone. He thought about the three men who’d taken Clare’s oxen, who’d left her and her children to die in the desert. And he thought about the choice he’d made. It would have been easy to leave them, to point them south, and wish them luck.

No one would have blamed him. Out here, you looked after your own. That was the rule. But rules didn’t mean much when you looked a kid in the eye and saw your own past staring back. The second day was harder. They started at dawn before the heat came. Garrett set a steady pace, not too fast, mindful of the children’s short legs.

Clare walked beside him, silent and focused. Emma held her mother’s hand. Daniel walked a few steps behind, dragging a stick through the dirt. By midm morning, the boy was limping. Garrett stopped, crouched down. Let me see. Daniel hesitated, glanced at his mother. Clare nodded. The boy lifted his foot.

His boot was worn through at the heel, and a blister had opened, raw and bleeding. Garrett pulled a strip of cloth from his pack, wrapped it tight. “That’ll hold for now, but we need to go slower.” “We can’t afford slower,” Clare said. Her voice was flat, automatic. “If we don’t reach the ranch soon, if we push too hard, he won’t make it at all.

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