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I Joked, “At This Rate You’ll Never Get Married”… She Whispered, “Only If You Ask Me” — And Left

May’s response to that being a look of such composed incredulity that Jack had to turn away to avoid laughing. He paid  for the squash. Double, because it seemed right. The town noticed. Towns always notice. “You spend a lot of time at the Whitfield fence,” said Jack’s  friend Tom, with the careful neutrality of someone delivering information they know will be received poorly.

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“We have shared water rights,”  Jack said. “You also,” Tom said, “have been to the shared water rights location 11 times in the past 2 months. I’m not saying anything. I’m just  noting. Jack told him there was nothing to note. But that evening,  sitting on his porch with a cup of coffee, watching the sun go down over the valley and the light turn everything gold, he found himself noticing that May’s lamp was on across the property.

And he found himself, without any particular decision being made, glad that it  was. Ridgeback was a small town. Small towns have a particular relationship with information. It moves faster than horses, arrives more accurately than the telegraph, and comes with commentary already attached. The information currently in circulation was that  Jack Callaway and May Whitfield were either about to get married or were conducting a feud of historic proportions,  and the town was divided approximately

evenly on which interpretation was correct. > Martha Dear, who ran the dry goods store and had an opinion about everything, held firmly to the marriage  theory. “I’ve seen the way he looks at her when she’s not looking,” she told anyone  who would listen. “That man is gone and doesn’t know it yet.

” Old Pete, who had known both families for 30 years,  took the feud position on grounds that the Callaways and the Whitfields had always had strong opinions  and the apple didn’t fall far from the tree. The consensus, eventually, >>  >> was that both things were probably true, and the town would simply have to wait and  see which one won.

May was aware of the speculation. She was not, by nature, a woman who paid much attention  to what people said about her. She had learned, running a property alone, that other people’s opinions of her choices were rarely useful and  frequently wrong. But she was also honest with herself in the way she tried to be honest about most things.

She liked Jack Callaway. Not despite the arguments, because of them. Because he never talked down to her,  never softened his actual opinion to be polite, never treated her like a woman who needed to be  managed rather than engaged. When he disagreed with her, which was often, he said so  directly and expected her to disagree back, which she did.

And somehow this felt more like respect than any number  of careful courtesies. She liked his laugh. She liked the way he thought things through slowly and then held his conclusions firmly. She liked that he  had paid double for the squash without being asked. She was not, however, going to be the one to say  any of this first.

She had her principles. It was October when it happened, the Harvest Social at the Ridgeback Grange Hall, >>  >> fiddle music, too much food, and the particular atmosphere of a community that has gotten through another summer together and is feeling generous about it. May was there with her neighbor Ruth.

Jack was there because Tom had told him he’d been spending  too much time alone, which was becoming a pattern of advice Jack was receiving from multiple directions. They found each other as they generally did in any room without particularly looking. “May,” he said. “Jack,” >>  >> she said.

“That chicken behave herself this week?” “Exemplary. She’s been entirely on her own side of the fence. I think she’s lost interest now that you built it higher. Or she’s planning something.” “Almost certainly,” May agreed seriously. “I’d watch the south section.” They stood together at the edge of the dancing and talked  easily, the way they always talked, with the particular rhythm of two people whose conversations had developed their own grammar over months of practice.

Ruth caught Mae’s eye from across the room and made a face that Mae chose to ignore.  A young man named Carter, recently arrived in Ridgeback,  not yet aware of the existing order of things, made his way over and asked Mae to  dance. Mae glanced at Jack. Jack was looking at Carter with the expression  of a man who has just noticed something he does not entirely welcome and is deciding  what to do about it.

>>  >> He recovered quickly, smiled.  “Go ahead,” he said pleasantly. “At this rate, you’ll never get married, Mae. You should take every opportunity that presents itself.” He meant it as a joke, >>  >> the friendly teasing kind, the kind they traded constantly, the kind that was their particular language.

Mae looked at him. Something in her expression shifted,  just slightly, just for a moment. Then the smile came back, not the public one, the real one, the one that meant she had seen something he hadn’t shown on purpose. She took one small step closer to him and said quietly, so only he could hear, “Not unless you ask.

” Then she turned to Carter and said perfectly  pleasantly, “Thank you, but I think I’ll sit this one out.” And walked away toward the refreshment table  as if nothing had happened. Jack stood where she had left him. Carter looked at him. “Was that” >>  >> “Go dance with someone else,” Jack said without looking at him.

He was watching Mae at the refreshment table, her back to  him, entirely composed, and he was thinking about three words delivered with a smile and a step and  the particular calm of a woman who has just said exactly what she meant and is  perfectly comfortable with it. Before we go on, I want to know what country you’re listening from today.

>>  >> Drop it in the comments. I want to know where this story is reaching. Now, let’s get back >>  >> because Jack Calloway is about to do some very fast thinking. He walked home under the stars, not because he lived far, because he needed the air. Not unless you ask. He turned it over the way he turned over everything, carefully, from every angle, with the  honest stubbornness that was his best quality and his most inconvenient one.

She had been saying  it, he realized, for months. Not in words, in the way she stayed at the fence longer than the conversation required. In the way she laughed at things he said that  other people found merely adequate. In the way she had looked at him across the  dance floor with that real smile.

The one he’d started to understand  was different from the one she gave everyone else. He had been treating  it as banter. She had been telling him something. He stopped walking in the middle of the road. The stars were very clear. Montana in October has the best stars.  Cold air, no clouds, the Milky Way laid out like someone had spilled salt across a black table.

He thought about the chicken, the squash, the water rights, 11 visits to the South Creek, the lamp in her window that he’d started looking for every evening without realizing he was doing it. He thought about Carter and the specific quality of the feeling he’d had watching Carter walk toward her. That feeling had a name.

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