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Neil Diamond Wrote a Song Thinking About the American People, and Nobody Noticed It

My name is Maggie Hart, and I used to believe famous songs belonged to famous people.

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That sounds silly now, but when you grow up in a small apartment above a laundromat in Newark, fame looks like a locked building across the street. You can see the lights. You can hear the music. But you know, deep down, nobody inside is looking for you.

My mother cleaned hotel rooms for twenty-six years. My father drove a cab until his back went bad, then drove anyway because bills don’t care about bones. We had music in our house, but not in the fancy way. No vinyl collection displayed like a museum. No piano in the living room. No father teaching guitar beside a fireplace.

Music came from the radio in the kitchen.

Music came from my mother humming while folding sheets that weren’t ours.

Music came from my father tapping the steering wheel after midnight when he thought everybody was asleep and he could finally stop pretending he wasn’t tired.

And yes, Neil Diamond was there.

Not like a god. Not like some distant superstar whose posters covered my walls. He was more like weather. He drifted through diners, taxis, pharmacies, barbershops, wedding halls, baseball stadiums, Fourth of July cookouts, and old cars with broken air conditioning. His voice had that gravel in it, that stubborn warmth, like a man who had been knocked around by life but still believed the chorus should be big.

My father loved “America.”

He loved it in a way that embarrassed me when I was sixteen. He would turn it up too loud in the cab, slap the dashboard, and sing with an accent he insisted he didn’t have.

“Everywhere around the world,” he’d belt, pointing at the windshield as if the New Jersey Turnpike were the Atlantic Ocean.

“Dad,” I’d groan. “People can hear you.”

“Good,” he’d say. “Let them.”

Back then, I thought the song was obvious. Big drums. Big chorus. Big patriotic feeling. The kind of thing people sang when fireworks exploded and everyone suddenly remembered they were proud of something, even if they had spent the whole week complaining about taxes, traffic, and politicians.

I didn’t know songs could hide things.

I didn’t know a song could stand in the middle of a crowd screaming its own name and still be misunderstood.

Years later, after my father died, I stopped listening to it.

Grief does that. It turns beloved things into traps. A melody becomes a door you cannot open without falling through. A chorus becomes a room where someone you loved is still alive for three minutes, and then dead again when the song ends.

So when my editor assigned me the Neil Diamond tribute piece, I almost said no.

“I’m not really the right person,” I told him.

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