Los Angeles, Beverly Hills, October 17th, 2018. 3:47 p.m. When the doorbell rang at Oussie Osborne’s house, the security camera showed a 75year-old man standing at the gate. His white hair was scattered in the wind. He wore a shabby old coat, and in his hands he clutched a worn cardboard box. Aussie didn’t recognize this man, but he should have because 35 years ago, this same man had stood outside Aussy’s concert venue holding a sign that read, “Satan’s music leads to hell.
” And now he was standing at his doorstep, but not to protest. The box in his hands carried the darkest secret of his 42year marriage. Ozie was sitting in the living room at that moment, gazing at the garden through the large window. He was 69 years old but still rocking stages. Just last month he had completed the European leg of the No More Tours 2 tour.
Sharon had gone shopping and the house was quiet. Security guard Tony’s voice came through the intercom. Sir, there’s an elderly gentleman at the gate. He wants to see you. Tony’s voice was hesitant because the man’s appearance was suspicious. He looked very old and very tired with dark circles under his eyes and his coat looked at least 20 years old.
There was a brief silence before Aussie responded. “Did he say who he is?” he asked. “He says he’s a priest, sir. His name is Harold Jenkins, and he says he needs to speak with you, that it’s the most important matter of his life.” Ozie frowned. Over the years, most clergymen who came to his door had come either to save him or to condemn him.
The 1980s had been the peak. Preachers like Jimmy Swagot had targeted him. Catholic Cardinal Okconor had called his music a help to the devil. But this man seemed different. There was no anger or judgment on his face in the camera, only exhaustion and perhaps desperation. “Let him in,” he said finally.
“But stay with me.” When the door opened, Harold Jenkins stepped inside and froze the moment he saw Aussie. His eyes welled up, but he didn’t cry. He was pressing the box to his chest as if it contained the most precious treasure in the world. His shoes were worn, the hems of his trousers slightly frayed. This wasn’t a wealthy megaurch pastor.
He was a humble shepherd of a small town church. “Mr. Osborne,” he said in a trembling voice. “Forgive me for coming. I know I said terrible things about you 35 years ago in 1983. I protested your concert in Sacramento. My congregation and I carried signs. I cursed you as a child of Satan. We pressured record stores into removing your albums from their shelves.
But I didn’t come here today to apologize. Ozie was surprised. The priest’s words were unexpected. If he hadn’t come to apologize after 35 years, then why had he come? “Then why are you here?” he asked. His voice wasn’t harsh, but curious. His Birmingham accent still came through clearly, despite all these years living in America.
Harold couldn’t answer for a few seconds. His lips were trembling, and there was decades of pain in his aged eyes. Then he extended the box toward Ozie. My wife Margaret died 3 weeks ago,” he said. “We were married for 42 years. I loved her more than anything, or so I thought, because I never really knew her.
I found this box while sorting through her belongings. She had been hiding it in the far back corner of the bedroom closet under the blankets. For 42 years, we lived in the same house, slept in the same bed, ate at the same table, and I didn’t even know this box existed. What’s inside? What’s inside makes me question my entire marriage. Ozie took the box.
The cardboard was old with faded floral patterns on it. Probably an old shoe box. When he opened the lid, he froze for a moment at what he saw. Inside the box were dozens of Black Sabbath and Aussie Osborne albums, vinyl records, cassettes, CDs, Paranoid, Blizzard of Oz, Diary of a Madman, No More Tears. Concert tickets dated from 1982 to 2017, at least 20 of them.
Aussie posters cut from magazines, yellowed but carefully folded. There were also a few photographs, blurry but happylooking photos of Margaret taken in concert crowds, and at the very bottom, a worn notebook. A single word was written on the cover. Diary. Harold’s voice cracked. My wife went to every one of your concerts for 35 years.
While I was cursing you from the pulpit, she was sitting in the back rows listening to your music. While I was reading the Holy Bible at home, she was listening to your songs through her headphones. While I was telling my congregation about the satanic dangers of rock music, she was secretly playing your albums in her car.
42 years. And I didn’t notice a thing. Not a thing. There was both anger and shame in his voice, but the anger wasn’t directed at Ozie. It was directed at himself. Oussie picked up the diary and opened it to a random page. Margaret’s handwriting was neat and legible, clean and careful, like a teacher’s penmanship.
The entry dated November 15th, 1986 began. Tonight I lied to Harold again. I told him I was going to the women’s meeting. Actually, I’m going to Aussy’s concert at the forum. The bark at the moon tour hasn’t ended yet. This was my last chance. Harold would probably have a heart attack if he heard that song.
But when I hear that song, I feel free. I first heard it when I was 17 in 1968 when Black Sabbath was still using the name Earth. Ever since that day, Aussy’s voice has been my secret refuge. No one understands, especially not Harold. He sees an enemy, but I see a hand reaching out to pull me from the darkness I’ve been trapped in for years.
Oussie’s expression changed as he read the page. Behind the stage persona, the real John Osborne, the man who came from the poor houses of Birmingham’s Aston neighborhood, who struggled with dyslexia, who was bullied at school, who felt misunderstood his entire life, recognized something in these words. He remembered his own mother, Lillian.
She too was a quiet woman, one who buried her pain inside, who tried never to be a burden to anyone. The slight trembling in his hands was from emotion. Harold continued, “I read the entire diary, Mr. Osborne, every page. It took me three days, and I learned that my wife had been battling depression for years without me noticing.
The woman lying in my own house, in my own bed, had been fighting darkness every night. She had gone to doctors, taken medication. I knew none of this. and your music. The music I cursed. The music I banned. The music I called the devil’s work. It kept her alive. Ozie slowly closed the diary and looked at Harold. In the old priest’s eyes was the exhaustion of a 35-year war, not just against Ozie, but against his own ignorance.
“Why did you really come here?” Ozie asked. His voice was soft, but direct. Harold took a deep breath. He stayed silent for a few seconds as if searching for the right words. For nearly 40 years, I saw you as the enemy. He said, “I saw you as Satan’s messenger. I gave sermons in my church, told them how your music was poisoning the youth.
My mother always used to tell me, Harold, look at your own house before you judge others.” I never looked. And now my wife is gone, and all that’s left is this box. this box and questions I’ll never get answers to. So, what do you want from me? Oussie asked. Harold’s eyes locked onto Aussies. I want to understand, he said. I want to understand why my wife loved you so much.
I want to understand what she found in your music because I thought I was the one keeping her alive. My prayers, my love, our marriage. But it wasn’t me. It was you. A rock star. The man who bit a bat’s head off on stage, nicknamed the prince of darkness, the man my congregation believed was going to hell. You kept her alive. How? Why? The room fell completely silent for a moment.
Tony, the security guard stood at the door, listening to this unexpected confession. The clock on the wall was ticking. It was past 3, and Sharon would be back within an hour. Ozie reached out and touched Harold’s shoulder. This gesture was unexpectedly gentle from a man nicknamed the prince of darkness. “Sit down, my friend,” Ozie said slowly.
“I’m going to tell you something, but first, would you like some tea? Because this is going to be a long story, and maybe I shouldn’t tell you why your wife loved my music, but why your wife never told you about my music, because that’s the real question, isn’t it?” A look of shock appeared on Harold’s face.
No one had ever asked him that question. He hadn’t even asked it himself. He had wondered why his wife loved Aussie for 42 years. But that was the real question. Why couldn’t his wife trust him? Why did she have to hide a box in the back of her closet for 42 years? Why did she live like a stranger in her own home? He sank into the chair as if his legs could no longer carry him.
I take my tea without sugar, he said quietly. But I want to hear the whole story, everything. Ozie nodded and told Tony to bring some tea. Then he sat across from Harold and paused for a moment before he began to speak. His eyes drifted into the distance as if traveling back 70 years. Then he began to speak. I was born in Birmingham, he said. Aston neighborhood.
There were six of us kids, and my father worked in a factory. My mother cleaned rich people’s houses. Our home was tiny. The toilet was outside. We froze in the winter. But poverty wasn’t the real problem. I couldn’t read at school. The letters danced before my eyes. Words made no sense. Teachers thought I was stupid. Kids made fun of me.
Going to school everyday was torture. Harold listened carefully. The pain in Oussie’s eyes revealed the real man hidden behind the stage lights. I dropped out of school at 15, Aussie continued. I worked every job there was at the slaughter house, in factories, on construction sites. Once I committed a robbery and went to prison.
My family was ashamed. I was ashamed. I saw myself as a worthless loser who was good for nothing. And then I found music. His voice changed, softened, or music found me. When I first heard the Beatles, my world changed. She Loves You was playing on the radio, and I realized I could say everything through music that I couldn’t express with words.
My dyslexia didn’t matter because I could memorize lyrics. I wasn’t stupid. I was just different. Harold lowered his head. For 40 years, he had seen Aussie as a monster. Now, the man sitting across from him was someone who had suffered like him, been cast out like him, been misunderstood like him.
He picked up the diary and opened it to another page. He read the entry dated March 3rd, 1992 aloud. Today I listened to the No More Tears album. I cried when Mama I’m Coming Home played. Harold could never understand this. He sees everything in black and white, good and evil, heaven and hell. But life isn’t like that. I’m not like that.
There’s light within darkness, darkness within light. Oussie knows this. I know it, too. But how can I explain it to Harold? Ozie nodded. Your wife was right. He said, “I’m not Satan. I never was. I grew up in a Christian family, went to Sunday school, but I stayed away from organized religion because I saw too many Harolds, people who judge without understanding, who look at the book but not the heart.
My music dealt with dark themes because life can be dark. But most of my songs were warnings. I wasn’t praising the devil. I was telling people to stay away from him. No one listened. Everyone saw the costume, saw the stage show. No one heard the message behind it. Harold’s hands were trembling. What about Margaret? He asked.
What did she see that I couldn’t? Ozie stood up and walked to the box. He pulled out a photograph. One of Margaret taken in a concert crowd in 2010. The woman appeared to be in her mid60s, but her smile was like that of a young girl. Look at this, Aussie said. This woman is happy. This woman is free. Do you know why? Because for those two hours she stopped being a priest’s wife.
She escaped from your expectations, from the church’s rules, from the town’s gossip. She was just Margaret, and she found that freedom at my concert. Harold looked at the photograph. He recognized the expression on his wife’s face, but only from photographs. At home, when she was with him, Margaret had never smiled like this.
She was always cautious, always measured. At church meetings, she was the perfect priest’s wife. In town, she was an exemplary Christian woman. But was she happy? Harold had never asked that question. “I imprisoned her,” he whispered. in her own home, in her own life. I imprisoned her, and she found her escape in your music.
” Aussie sat back down and looked into Harold’s eyes. “My friend,” he said. “I’m not angry at you. Actually, I’m grateful to you. Because thanks to Margaret, I remembered something.” Harold looked at him in surprise. “What?” he asked. Ozie paused for a moment before answering. “Why my music matters?” he said. For years, I’ve been going on stage, sold millions of albums, won awards.
But sometimes you forget why you started. Margaret’s diary reminded me. I go on stage because there are thousands of Margarets out there. People suffering silently in their homes, unable to tell anyone, lost in the darkness. And my voice reaches them. I tell them, “You’re not alone. Darkness is normal. Pain is normal. But morning comes.
It always comes. Harold stood up and walked to the window. Outside the sun was setting. The sky painted in shades of orange and purple. 40 years, he said quietly. For 40 years I fought the wrong enemy. You weren’t the enemy. The enemy was my ignorance, my judgments, my closedhearted deafness. Ozie came to his side. It’s not too late, my friend.
He said Margaret is gone, but you’re still here. And now you have a choice. You can take this box home, put it in the back of your closet, try to forget everything, or you can accept this gift that Margaret left you. Harold asked, “A gift?” His eyes were still moist, but something in them had changed. Ozie nodded. Margaret didn’t leave you a box.
He said, “She left you a mirror. She gave you a chance to look at yourself. And if you have the courage, you’ll look into that mirror. You’ll see the real Harold. And maybe for the first time you’ll understand why your wife hid a box for 42 years. Because the answer isn’t inside this box. The answer is inside you.
Harold stopped before walking out the door and turned to Ozie. Thank you, he said. Not just for your time, for giving me my wife back. Ozie nodded, but said nothing. Some moments are more powerful than words. Harold pressed the box to his chest and stepped out onto the glittering streets of Beverly Hills.
Behind him, the prince of darkness watched from the window. Two men, one had cursed from the pulpit, the other had screamed from the stage. Both had been searching for the same thing all along to be understood. And ironically, they had seen each other as the last person who would ever understand them. On the flight back to Sacramento, Harold opened Margaret’s diary one last time.
He turned to the final page. The date was September 14th, 2018, just 2 weeks before her death. In shaky handwriting, it read, “Harold brought me flowers today. For the first time in 42 years, he bought flowers for no reason. Maybe he’s changing, too. Maybe one day I can tell him everything. Show him the box.
But I’m not afraid anymore because like Oussie said, “Darkness doesn’t last forever. Morning always comes.” Tears streamed down Harold’s cheeks as he read the page. His wife had forgiven him. Before he had even learned to forgive himself. 3 months later, a Sunday service was held at Grace Church in Sacramento. Harold Jenkins stepped up to the pulpit, but this time he wasn’t holding a Bible.
He was holding a worn cardboard box. He looked at his congregation and began to speak. For 40 years, I told you who to love and who to hate. He said, “Today, I’m going to tell you a story about a priest, a rock star, and a box that was hidden for 42 years. And maybe this story will help you learn to listen, just as it helped me.
” That morning, for the first time ever, a black Sabbath song was played in Grace Church. changes.
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